And what not...
Generally when u r sitting in a 'University Accommodation' after a hard day's work, when ur thighs are almost out of gas and ur head just about hangs in between a persistent 'dnnnnnng' sound and the outer world, u feel the need of someone... someone in whose laps u cd just rest ur head and go sleep.
I guess everyone everywhere feels that way. Its just that they don't speak out in open. Or, they don't speak out in open unless they find someone?
In that case the thing is pretty self explanatory here. I have found someone.
After landing here, and feeling bereft of the envelope of emotional assurance around me, I wanted this 'someone' that could fill this gap. That could maybe complete me?
Her name is Rakshanda. umm I dunno if she is pretty or not, but yes she does give me this sense of belonging. A warmth. An assurance that whenever I need her, she would be standing right there with her arms wide open as if to assimilate me totally into her.
It started a month and a half back. I almost bumped into her near my apartment and almost hurt myself! ( dunno abt her :P ) but I'd rather say thank God for that :)... Till now its just been a beautiful ride down the lane. I guess both are busy in our very different lives, but when we do meet after I get back, it just the two of us. I talking about my day, my struggle with things, my experiences, my joy, my sorrow and she just listens to me with this smile that I almost naturally empty myself in front of her.
In the past one and a half months we have tried to know each other as much as possible. Maybe this is why we feel so comfortable in each other's company. Sitting with our backs on each other, I can talk about anything from skies to sea to philosophy and what not, and always find in her a listener who could by her looks extract the soul of what I am talking about. Many a times I have just sat there with my arms around her and lay there just like that for loong with no words spoken or no sounds heard.
With the change in weather here, however, she hasn't been keeping too well... As winter set in,
her color changed from soothing green to pale yellow. People say it is the fall colours and love thenew ambiance everywhere, but they forget that this beauty is at the cost of Rakshanda's salubrity. With every passing day she loses herself and it won't be long before she would stand there all barren in this winter with nothing to cover her!... Nothing to keep her warm... And she would have to wait for what seems like an eternity to bloom again...
In all this I stand at a corner when there are other people enraptured by her beauty. when these people will be in their homes carefully tucked into their blankets, when their temporary obsession with her beauty would be done with, and when she would be not as lovely looking as she is right now, Where should I be? And then all the past moments float in front of my eyes. I should be right next to her when it starts to snow. Or when it rains hard. Even though I would not be able to protect her, but sometimes u just need someone to be there beside you to survive through.
Rakshanda.... It is a beautiful start to a long ending walk on the clouds...
